i've had this nagging unsettled feeling the last couple days, a week maybe. restless perhaps, uninspired, not really excited about anything. i finally put my finger on this odd and unfamiliar emotion - i'm bored!
i can't really remember the last time i was bored. with two toddlers ('nuff said), groceries to buy, meals to cook, clothes to wash, shirts to iron, rooms to clean, oh yeah and paying work to be done - who has time to be bored? apparently though, one can be busy and bored.
a few things keep coming to mind as i try to puzzle out this conundrum:
1) i need to make some local friends. i miss walking to friends' houses, spontaneously meeting at playgrounds, picnics, outings, laughing and groaning about the kids' deeds and misdeeds. i miss the rare but treasured ladies' night, when we never even got past the kitchen to sit down because we started talking and didn't stop till 2 am
2) i'm not excited about work. this comes and goes, and there's really no solution to it, but there's been a lot of turmoil lately and i've ended up with some responsibilities that just aren't that fun
3) i can't get over the feeling that i just want to sit down and read a good book. not sure exactly when i'd do it, but anyone help me out here? maybe my brain just craves something without pictures and longer than 20 pages ;-)
upon reflection, i think this is actually what happens to a lot of stay-at-home moms, and it's a little surprising that i haven't felt it before. the world seems to consist of endless to-dos, but unless you are intentional about it, it's easy to forget why exactly all those things should be done. without purpose, boredom is inevitable. but wait.. one playground, one painting, one teeth-brushing battle at a time, slowly but unstoppably, two little people are growing up, and i will never again have as much input into their lives as i do now. put that way, who has time to be bored?
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